When you walk into a room filled with strangers, what are your initial thoughts? Do you imagine the best possible scenario? Do you think, These people are interested in me and can’t wait to meet me? Or do you think the worst? These people think I’m fat . . . boring . . . stupid . . . and they don’t want to have anything to do with me. They can see that there’s something about me that’s different or somehow unlikable. I’m going to take a wild guess and presume you do not work for a psychic network. Therefore, you do not actually know what’s in another person’s mind. Many of us feel as if the world is scrutinizing us and finding us wanting. Believing that other people are thinking the worst can also be subtle. Consider the following examples:
Arturo sat on the couch in my office, telling me about his weekend. He’d seen a movie and spent time with his girlfriend, and he also played golf all day on Sunday. I listened without interruption or comment. I didn’t speak. I didn’t say a single word. He looked at me and nodded. “You’re right, I should have done some work this weekend. I can’t believe how lazy I am.” On another occasion, Corinne wept in frustration as she described a recent problem at work. She blew her nose and grabbed tissues from the box, taking the last of them. She shook her head apologetically. “You probably think I’m such a crybaby.”
More recently my friend Kellie and I had dinner, and at the end of the meal, she ordered dessert. After giving the server an order for apple pie a la mode, Kellie gave me a sheepish look. “I know what you’re thinking,” she said. “I have no business eating apple pie.” I didn’t think Arturo was lazy. I didn’t think Corinne was a crybaby. I didn’t think that Kellie had no business ordering dessert.
Arturo, Corinne, and Kellie were projecting the critical thoughts they had about themselves onto me and then believing that I was thinking the same thoughts. So where did those critical perceptions come from? They came from the usual place: the past. Arturo’s father always accused him of being a slacker, and he had internalized that view of himself. He thought I was viewing him through his father’s eyes. Corinne grew up in a family that didn’t tolerate emotions or tears, which were viewed as signs of weakness. She imagined that I was viewing her tears contemptuously, as her family members did whenever someone expressed emotion. Kellie’s mother constantly monitored her weight, and Kellie thought I was doing so too. She transferred the shaming experience with her mother onto me. If you think other people are critical, indifferent, exasperated, or angry, you’re a lot more likely to use food as a substitute for love and comfort. Conversely, when you trust that others like you and think the best of you, you feel good. When you feel good, there’s no need to distract yourself with food.